Once upon a time..

There was a woman, who lived in a beautiful big castle..and had loads of money, a gorgeous man and lots of new shiny clothes and a constant size 10 figure....however she went into nursing and is stuck in house which is falling down, broke, single and a size 16 figure....

true story, today..i learnt a good fianancial lesson: PAY ATTENTION TO BILLS and remember when they go out!!! Bring on march the 20th! I'm going to a few socials this week, the jazz society on friday and medsin (in the aim to hook up with a nice fit med student) on thursday- so busy week!

uni is getting tiring, still having the old come home at 4pm...and crashing out syndrome, how will i cope when on 12hr shifts? Today was a good day, spent the day with my group, who are wonderful, and learnt about pooing and peeing..was rather amusing, and found out i have a high temperature aswell, so somewhere in my body im infected...but wheree???!!!!
Not long till placement! I need to take up my trousers however as they're a foot too long as im a short arse, and have my first exam on the 20th, eek!

On another good note, i've been offered an interview with NHS professionals, a HCA agency, which will help fianancially, i can work when i want etc and be brilliant- so im feeling much better today..

anyway the night is drawing in, and bed is calling me...

so long!

It's all got a bit too much

I'm happy to tell people on here, openly that i suffer from unipolar depression. I was diagnosed around 2 months ago and am currently on citalopram. I've been feeling 'ok' up till now and had good and bad days- but atleast every day isn't a bad day now.

I've had a bad week, It's all just hit me, the workload, making new friends etc. I've been feeling very self concious about the friends i made, i'm a single girl living by myself...yet all my friends seem to be partnered up, living with them and i'm feeling left out when they talk about their partners, also when i talk about guys i've dated or seen- i start to feel a slut (as last week i had 2 dates with 2 different guys) compared to them.

Now for the workload..blimey...biological sciences is getting TOUGH. I spent the whole of yesterdays lesson on the urinary system, needless to say atleast 2 slides in i lost the attention, i didn't get it..it was too hard so i wondered off into annas world. I've decidedn to spend this next weekend catching up, getting organised and getting it together. On top of this, my whole house is a mess..screaming for housework to be done!

I got my placement yesterday, starting the 23rd march- on an acute cardiology ward! I'm rather excited, it seems like a very buzzing ward which has apparently just been refurbished. I rang up on wednesday asking to organise a visit to the ward to meet staff, mentors etc before and spoke to some really nice people on the phone..i've heard so many horror stories about mean and bullying mentors who eventually fail the student due to the bad relationship and this is a big fear!

....i get my uniform today, may update a pic with it.....why am i doing this?

work work..eat, work work

I should, theoretically have written up my notes, started thinking about assignments and going over anatomy and physiology
but nooo..instead im eating take aways, watching dr who and casulty and pining over my idiot of an ex!

I'm thinking more and more about the publics perception of a nurse..how its changed, what the sort of nurse i want to be?! I want to be good, i know that...but, what makes a good nurse?

Should she be a good communicator, have good knowledge, team player? Even communication skills of a nurse is debated, so what style should I have?

I guess it's making my own path, and carving my own way of being a nurse...

3 weeks In..

I love it! When people ask how i'm finding the course, i simply say: tiring but rewarding.

Tiring is an understatement. Me and my colleagues are finding coming home after lectures and crashing out, energy is at an all time low..who knew that sitting down for 5 hours a day could be so exhausting?

My personal life has been a mess..yet its a nice feeling to know this area is working. I've made some amazing friends, 2 from healthcare related backgrounds- have been seconded and still recieve their wages, jealous, moi?!

Living by myself has its ups and downs, ups include indepedance, eating when i want..doing the house the way i want, downs- feeling lonely now and again!

On thursday i learnt how to take manual blood pressure- wow what a feat. It was hard to say the least! I hope I never have to do it again and the electronic ones are used on placement! It was hard to listen in a class full of excited student nurses, but i took atleast one reading! I did find out however I have low bp, 105/60...beautiful! lol

One thing is worrying me- the patients, my placement is in a few weeks. My main worry is how i'll deal with mentally ill patients, or the older ones. I'm scared of being patronising..or trying to be so un-patronising that i have bad communication with my patients..

thats all for now, i promise i'll update more often!

Oops..

Beeen a bit lax havn't I?

Why is that I hear you shout!

1.Uni- omg uni, it's EXHAUSTING ME! sitting down and listening is harder than you think! I'm gone by 8pm. I feel bombarded with info!
2. No internet- the pad still needs to enter the techno age


so with exhaustion and just 6 mins running out of my time at the libary..next time!

New Year #3

Arghh the pain. So I've not been 100% the past few days- womens troubles to say the least! It was touch and go at first to see whether I would be able to go uni, was doubting maybe it would be best to put it off till september- BUT NO! I'm going ahead, with the engines on.

I bought my first pieces of furniture today for the new place, a lush 2 seater sofa and a sideboard for the living room. Plus a nice cushion aswell! I've also got my A&P textbook- and have become a bit of a geek reading it in my spare time..

for now im enjoying my xmas prezzies, shopping in the sales and counting down till the 12th..will it never come?!

Christmas 2008 #2

So its christmas eve tomorrow..yay! I've already eaten 4 mince pies, and don't feel the single bit guilty! I've also put in an application into a lovely 2 bedroom house- so fingers crossed! It feels good, although i won't be in halls..I didn't enjoy my last experience, and prefer space and time plus it can be mine for the next 3+ years!

Anywho- Im getting excited by the day, need to call NHS bursarys though- so i get my money!